maybe these pills are going to help me. maybe for once i'm going to let them. apart from all that and whether or not this idea is drug induced i have come to some sort of, what i deem, an "important" realization. I have found what i thought was true love. Love that could withstand anything. Love that could mean everything, fix all, and make my life worth living. I am feeling realistic at this moment. This love seems to be only something I can give the way I want it to be given to me. If I can only give it and it can't be accepted and returned the way I so wish it could....perhaps I should be concentrating it on myself instead of my fant